In other news.....
I cut the dogs nails today! He wasn't to bad, but not as good as Squigmond was. I could get him to just lay there as long as I had treats or someone to pet his chest xP. He was such a good pup...."okay, enough Debbie Downer"
Did some more cleaning and studying this morning; as well as working out. I'm beginning to like working out! It gets me moving in the a.m. I should probably stop shutting myself in my room, my family probably thinks there's something wrong with me....BUT I can assure them there's nothing wrong. Just thinking alot lately. So much going through my mind!
Soo...
I have so many feelings it's not even funny! I can't wait for my best-guy friend to get here! as far as that topic goes- I love the hell out of him! As much as I want it to, I don't think it can go anywhere right now. He means so much to mean and I can't even begin to describe how amazing he is! He knows exactly what to do to cheer me up or calm me down; whereas some people give up and call me difficult or impossible. We've hit some rough patches in the past but we just look forward from that. There's no sense in trying to change what has already happened. He helped make me realize when it was time to grow up and I thank my, very few, lucky stars he's in my life! I can not wait until he gets here, it's going to be a blast!!!!!NEXT....
Talking to Chad (my father) and my siblings makes me so effing happy it's not even funny. It's sad because when I talk to him I want to cry. All I cab picture is the one memory I have of him. I was maybe 1 1/2 and was picking the fuzzies out of his toes and he was sitting on my mini mouse blanket. He said " I love you Cameo Yvonne, you're such a beautiful little girl!"and then kissed me good-bye for that visit. According to him, I used to have a little nurse's kit. When he'd come visit, he'd pretend to faint and I'd: bandage him up, give him "shots", check his temp., and heart beat :-p ! I think it's awesome he remembered that. He even remembers the mini mouse blanket set I had. I hope everything goes well and we can have at least a decent relationship. I would love to meet C.j, Areill, and Joey! They are so fricken cute!
NEXT....
I'm attempting to loose 55lbs by February 14th (Yes, I am aware that is Valentines day. No, there is no reason I picked this date) I want to be at least semi-in-shape. I'm sick of seeing roles in the mirror. It's getting sickening. Plus, now is better than never. My goal for this week is 5 lbs. I'm at 256lbs (according to my bathroom scale, which a tiny bit on the high side) By the end of today my calorie intake is only going to be about 1,400. As long as I keep burning more than I take in I'll be good!! I'm at 500(ish) right now. I'll keep up my morning work out and maybe add in a nightly work out, that might help put me to sleep, I hope.
There's tons more up there but to
much for me to process right now :-p.
Have you ever listened to a song a million and one times and then on the million and second you hear a lyric that really catches your ear or touches you....that so just happened to me ha ha.
Time to go clean a little .
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